at times, i too, feel the fear of losing you. the exact fear you have got. exactly the same. thats why, my thoughts will always run wild. like what happen if you wouldn’t there one day? what if? all the what ifs seems to appear in my mind. sometimes i just want to decrease the —— that i have for you so that i wouldn’t be scared and end up not knowing what will to do if you ain’t there. i’ve tried, but to no avail. i can’t, can’t let go, can’t help it. my trying seem to not work. i can’t. it just seems to increase to the maximum every now and then. though it decreases, it never seems to last long. not even for a day. because there always will be a strong urge for me to fulfill the responsible i told you i’m responsible for. the fear i too have, ends me up tearing becuse of the word SCARED. i used to miss dance more than anything. becuase you know what dance is to me yes? but now, i miss you more than dance. you seem to be much much more impotant to me than dance. you know how much i miss you, don’t you? i am willing to do anything for you. just you. no one else, except you. never. i’ve never been so scared of anything. but just that thought makes me feel like the earth is dropping. now you get it ,get why i seem to want to ignore you now and then?
you broke the promised. i’m sad. i hope nothing will happen. i told you that even if i ignore you or what, you’ve gotta not break the promise. somehow, i’m disappointed. but well, i just hope this wouldn’t repeat again. i hope. hope for the best in everything. hope that nothing will happen. just hope.
